First Weight

Well I bit the bullet and got on the scales - 11 stone 13 lbs!!!

Gutted, I've put on about a stone over Christmas, that is unbelievably although I'm not altogether surprised. But I fell like at least I know where I stand now and can do something about it.

I've created a spreadsheet in Excel where I can log my weight and things like calorie intake and any excercise that I do which will hopefully help me keep track of things.

In other news the snow is melting at a rate of notts now so this should make it easier to get out and about, but it is slightly sad in a way as I did enjoy taking the dogs out for a walk and running about the fields in the snow.

Job Situation

Well I still haven't got a job and it's been almost exactly a year now. I never would have thought I would have been unemployed for so long at the start of this.

Up until now I have been fairly chilled about not working obviously having the odd moment of fear now and again but not all the time. Now however it's starting to be so that the fear is always sort of there in the background.

I think I might be in a vicious circle at the moment, no one now wants to give me a job because I've been out of work for so long and it looks like I'm a bit of a slacker. I sent out another application this morning and I actually wrote a little extra in the email saying how keen I was to get back into a job etc, I wasn't sure it didn't sound a bit drippy but then I'm not generally getting any reply's anyway so I thought it was worth a go.

I think being at home so much is just giving me extra time to eat my way through everything in the fridge as well!

Good Start - Crumbled At The End

Excellent start to the day today, I had Shredded Wheat for breakfast with chopped up bannana and I haven't done that in a long while, over Christmas it was mostly choc bics! Ok so I did have a few bics with my morning cuppa but at least we are moving in the right direction.

Then for lunch cous cous with some chopped up tomatoes and feta cheese, still good, still healthy.

For dinner - jacket potato with chick peas and salad, excellent, excellent.

Then it all went peet tong. It started with some of the leftover choc cake from yesterday's Sunday lunch, and went into a further slide with some Quality Streets from Christmas. One of each of the flavours I like I had, oh and I might as well go the whole hog and admit it - I had 2 pieces of the choc cake!

Honestly I think there is actually something wrong with me. Things need to change dramatically on the food front. I have identified the danger time for me though I think, later in the evening snacking. I can do well all day and then crumble at night. Unbelievable. I must make serious efforts to sort this.

Christmas / New Year Meltdown

Well I have had a great Christmas and New Year but I have totally fallen off the wagon with regards to eating healthily.

I dread to think of the amount of calories I have consumed over this 2 week period and even though we are no into the 3rd Jan things haven't slowed down. Just yesterday I went out with my Grandma and Sister to the Harvester ( www.harvester.co.uk great food by the way) and ate so much I'm sure I could feel my stomach expanding. I think the thing that gets me is their salad bar. It sounds all innocent, being salad and all but they have some great stuff in there, potato salad and lots of yummy sauces, that it would be enough for a whole meal on it's own really.

Anyway just like most other people I'm going to make a concerted effort now to eat much healthier and eat much less! Although as today is a Sunday and we have family around for Sunday lunch and I've already seen a big choc cake in the kitchen, maybe I had better start tomorrow!

For those that were wondering, I havent even thought about stepping on a scales.